Monday, April 26, 2010

hummm

i feel bad i havent been posting lately.
but i just have nothing to really say!
and that is okay right? i think so.
so dont worry i will back with
something to say.
and you will love it ;)

S.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Shwans

Mozzarella Cheese Sticks are wonderful beautiful things. I love them. They are delicious. Especially when you cook them long enough the cheese oozes out of them. yeah there wonderful. I wonder if Matteo's has Mozzarella cheese sticks. i feel like they should for some reason. but i am pretty sure they dont. maybe i should ask them to get some haha. i bet people would order them... they are yummie.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

where is the oxygen and transmisson sensor

My favorite part in New Moon is when KStew slaps Paul and then he transforms into a wolf because it pisses him off. To bad Paul didnt snap her head off that would have been happymaking. Stupid Jake had to be the big hero and save her.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Neighbors

In my not so very small Neighborhood i have a few favorite family's i love to keep secretly updated with.

Like the family i met before they had kids. they had a motorcycle back then and garage sales where i once bought a beautiful porcelain doll with all the change i managed to dig up. The Mom has red hair and she is a lil round in the middle but not overly so. the dad Kellys tells me has a british accent which is cool and he is cute with dark hair and glasses and works in the garage sometimes. they have three little boys one is named connor i think it is spelled with an O though instead of a E. I think the oldest boy is maybe a lil older then my conner but i am not positive. they have a red station wagon and a white car that is shaped like a box and i cant remember the name of. But they have Political Bumperstickers! that support Obama and stuff i LOVE them.

Another one of my favorites is this family that lives down the street in a house on the corner with a very lovely backyard with a wrought iron fence with a gate that i glance at when i can. I think they have two little boys i am not positive though because when i see them i usually watch the Parents because they are Happy and beautiful and fun to watch because you can tell they love each other. they are youngish but not to young and playful and ride their bikes a lot. they sort of remind of the Noah and Allie when they were young and happy and it was summer in the south.

The third live in the street behind my house. they have a beautiful dog and i think they have four wheelers and weird stuff like that. today i saw the dad shooting a bow and arrow in the backyard... there is a little Boy and Girl i believe they are both Blonde and i think they are also just a lil older then conner. the dad has like salt and pepper hair and is in shape and is not hard on the eyes. i have never seen a mother so i wonder if there is a mother i think not but i really have no clue.

i think this is all of my favorite family's i keep tabs on without really having any connection to at all.
I do love to experience the one family i know because there are SO MANY of them and they are all home schooled and cute! but because they have sons my age that i know i feel like they don't really count and i cant really put them on this list. but that is okay because i do love watching them hehe. Like the Dad manages chickfila and is olderish but very cute and nice. the Mom has a twin sister i hear and always wears a hat and braids in her hair. they have six kids. the oldest, J, was my first boyfriend! and cant spell valentines. then the one after him, D, is adorable and quiet and funny and plays Rugby. Then there is B and C who are silly little boys who really arent that little anymore but once B was roller blading off this ramp and fell and broke his wrist and i was here and saw it happen... C well we used to call him a chipmunk because well... he looked like a little fluffy chipmunk and well still does.. and then the babies G and i can NEVER remember the otherones name... but they are cute little girls who are tan and cute and once G accidentally like drank some sort of chemical you ARE NOT supposed to drink and had to go to the hospital...

and anyway. this is my stalker information from the neighborhood. i hope i don't come across as creepy because it is not a creepy obsession i have these people i just admire each family for different reasons and maybe someday i will have a family and will be able to pull my favorite characteristics from them and apply it to my own life. you never no, it could happen.

April 15.

i was sitting in my class for slackers, Earth and Space Science class, and this kid who sits near me and is a sophomore and lacks... brains ( he called me racist and wrote a letter to the teacher telling her i was being racist and thankfully the teacher understood the predicament and just pretended to keep me after class to make him happy and i didnt get in trouble for him telling her that when i was being racist when i WAS IN NO WAY being racist. i went to a Montessori school when i was little hello!? ) anyway i dont remember what was happening but he was like your fat ( to me ) and the kid between me and the kid who said it, was like... auctually i cant remember what he said... something along the lines of yeah your fat but just a little. ya no? and then the original kid was like OKay big boned. i was like WTF i didnt frekin ask you if you thought i was Fat or not. auctully i just gave them a look and then didnt talk to either one of them the rest of class and i dont plan on talking to the original one as long as i can get away with it. because really he is stupid. it was just one of those stupid high school moments i had to share... because i dont think i am necessarily fat i mean i am like a 5/6 or 27 that is an average size... i wouldnt say i was... healthy or skinny or fit... but i would say i am not OVERLY FAT or Obese... but maybe i am and i dont know it do you ever wonder if the way you see your self isnt how everyone else sees you? and maybe i am Obese and i just cant see it, hummmmmm.... but we did get to go outside where i talked to my friend Alec who would NEVER call me fat ;D

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Snooping.

I was just roaming facebook you know how that goes... you go to one persons page then see someone and click on them then you click on someone else... so on and so forth... anyway.

'some things fall apart so you can put even better things together'

Sasha said this to Kristen and i thought it was Quotable.
So thank you Sasha. I always knew you were... fascinating.

To tell the truth

i wish i was a deeper person in general.
i wouldn't say that i am shallow, i just wish i was deeper. like... smarter like i could express my opinion and blow you out of the water with my excessive knowledge. i wouldn't want to be cocky and knowitally, just deep. like a Philosopher so i could write great novels like Makaveli and Shakespeare or the lady who stuck her head in the oven. That is funny because Makaveli was like... political and Shakespeare wrote the most famous plays in the whole entire world and the Sylva Plath... well all i know is that she stuck her head in the over and i have to read her book senior year. But i figure i would want to be a well rounded writer right? haha but instead if i wrote a book... it would be fictitious not even like J.M. Berry fiction defiantly more like Twilight fiction. You see?

and i am failing Math and not even because i am busy or because i am rebelling against the masses or anything cool at all it is just because i am lazy and it is hard and i don't feel like dealing with things that are hard. I just want to take a damn (ha) pottery glass! you see what i mean? and for my AP Photo stuff... my pictures are of Barbies!? comeON! How UNdeep can you get? and its not like Barbie fighting Feminism it is like... Barbie Getting dressed. maybe i will figure out how to tie it to Feminism so that i can be a little bit more Deep... cuz i am NOT going to blow ANYone, let alone some collage i may choose to show my portfolio to, away with my total lack of undeepness.

sometimes i do silly dumb things because of my lack of rememberence and so then people see me as silly and dumb. when really... i am not silly and dumb... i just don't care enough to remember anything.

I want to wear black turtlenecks and French berets and sip black coffee while reading war and peace. I want to sit and Noble Tea and Coffee (because i wont conform to Starbucks because of some unethical reason i feel strongly against) and have deep discussions about... God and Politics and... stuff i would feel passionate about.

I want to feel passionate! about all this deep shit i don't care about right now. I want to like red wine and watch Clockwork Orange and foreign films. I want to care about REALLY learning as many foreign languages as i possibly could that way i really could travel anywhere i wanted and not have to rely on a interpretor.

I want to ENJOY listening to Beethoven and Chopin and annoying music without words and have it MOVE me because it is soo damn beautiful.

I want to go to Africa and make a movie to show the injustice taking place right next door. I want to start a movement because i can. I want to show people that i can make a difference. i want to live in God's image and love him and give him everything i have and believe in him wholly and unselfishly. I want to help fight poverty and give them what i can and only keep what i absolutely truly must keep to survive.

I want to not care about what other people think completely with my whole self and live my life for me and not others because i am afraid what they will think. (not that i do this often... but i have done it and i am ashamed because i should not do things because you want me to when i don't want to)

i want to teach the people around me a life lesson they will NEVER forget.

I want to astound my teachers because i am so wonderful and full of insight. I want to play the Piano because all intelligent people play the piano because the piano makes you smarter.

i want to eat Organic and go for walks because i love the beautifulness of the outdoors and every time i go outside i want to thank the lord for giving me all the life and beauty that is outside my door.
i want to be able to thank God for everything he has given me and not mourn for everything he has not given me that i wanted or for everything i feel he has taken from me.

My brain stopped spewing thoughts for the moment and this seems like a decent place to stop... Being able to trust in God and thank him? That seems darn important so it is a perfect ending point.

Monday, April 12, 2010

La Te Da Te Daaaa!

First day back to school after SB. It was...

English was...

Photo was not to shabby. Because well... it is art. and so i didn't really do anything all block but talk to John and mess with Photoshop...

History was a little boring... we played a tilted version of Jerpody. Then took some boring notes about... what i dont remember.

AL nothing unusual... but Prom is like two weeks away... UGHHH! We have so much to do! i went to the Art room to finish my Photoshop work so i can get prints made...

Then... SATPrep. the most boring thing i have ever experienced in my life. and guess what! i almost got kicked out of the class room! it was great!

and Now Jamie and i have to drive this... annoying boy to school! eek! forreal! he like roped us into it... meanie head...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

to be announced...



i was in France last time he came
and i will be in France once again...
Maybe i will get lucky and get to see
him in one of the meny other states
he will be visiting before i leave?
or i wont get lucky and will have
to wait another two years...
we will see.

August 15 2010

Deer Creek





or for you newbies...
Stupid Verizon.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Things i have bought.

1. New bikini from Victoria's secret
2. Sunglasses from walmart
3. skirt from walmart
4. pretend spankx that are stupid 'D
5. 3 summer/spring dresses
6. Pretend Birkenstock's that make my feel look extrawide!
7. cheap underwear from walmart!
8. 5 mens small v-neck t's
9. a cute black dress for work

10. almost bought ugly shorts from walmart
11. almost bought old mens circulation socks
12. almost bought new crazy shoes numerous times

i tried to measure my suitcase for Savvy and i couldn't find like a tape measure so i used a ruler! haha and i think it might be just the right size. hopefully. i will just pack light. haha. well i have to because what if i buy stuff!! then it will be like uhhhhhhh i am an idiot. ummmm let me think. anything else???? nope. except i love bagels with creamcheese and tomatos and salt!! yummie yummie. i think i have a headache. i better drink some water ;DDD