Ha Ha Katy Perry's California Gurl's is so funny! i love it.

Mily Cyrus's Cant Be Tamed Video... Uh... i think she is trying to hard to be lady gaga... ya no what i mean?

I never realized Billy Holiday was Jazz. So i guess i do like Jazz! and i like Louis Armstrong. Duhh im silly.

I watched Sex And The City yesterday. it was Okay. It made me realize i havnt really been shopping and bought anything awesome lately. how sad is that? i think it is very sad. like everyday awesome. ya no what i mean?

Wiiiiiiii

just played Cabela's Monster Buck Hunter... talk about save the Animals...

i also just finished The Second Short Life of Bree Tanner. it was Interesting. I wish she wouldn't have died at the end, because i liked seeing the Cullen's (IE Edward) from a different point of view. and it is so funny because now when Jane is Mentioned i totally see Dakota Fanning. it is awesome. they did good on Jane.

Why did they switch people to play victoria?? i thought Rachelle Lefeaver whatev her name was looked the part... i do like the girl who is playing her (Bryce something or another) the girl from the movie about the scary things in the forest... but still... i think i like the other girl better... but maybe i will like Bryce better... idk. lets of Twilight lately. i think i am ready for the movie. and bored. =D i am going to blame it on Bree Tanner. yes i am.

http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1810074301/trailer

Go there to see some random stuff for the upcoming movie. i cant deicide if it makes me want to crawl in my shell/runaway screaming or not... because it looks extra cheesy... but i think i like Leah. even if i dont like think i like her hair cut. i dont think i like bree... she just isnt what i a pictured.

ohh i need to remember to buy the Twilight Graphic novel next time i am at Barnes and Noble.... because i decided i might beable to like that bella and i shouldnt let KStew and the TwiHards scare me away from something i want to read .P yeah take that.

like...

my new background? i thought the little girl was cute! but i wish there weren't the swirls on like the top page it is kind of Christmasy. i just bought the deluxe edition on new moon! and i think i am going to read the try to read the short life of bee whatever it is on line cuz it is free. i read the first few lines and idk. but i think i will try if i get bored. i found out today when i get my braces off. but i wont share with you because it is a surprise ,D i got the She & Him record! and it came with the free download of the CD yessss. that made me very happy.

and i think i am confused... i thought i head all over they are making eclipse into two movies? but that doesn't make sense. so are they making Breaking Dawn into movies??? like Pre-Renesmee and the after? idk...
i think i decided im not going to read bree. because i dont feel like it...

okay. i looked it up. Breaking Dawn will be two movies. the first half to come out Nov 8, 2011... that is over a year away; a bit ridiculous if you ask me. really they should leave stuff like for me to figure out. EXAMPLE!

if Rob is Edward then Alexis Bledel is Bella.
Or if David Kross is Edward then Danielle Panabaker is bella.

BUT NOT KRISTEN STEWART. really.

why do they keep switching directors? its is annoying... but i am glad kathrine hardwick is gone she was awful.

when will the second host come out? i thought there was supposed to be another one?
when will the movie come out?

when will the sun come out??
i wanna go to the pool.

Blockenspheil

so yesterday we all went and cleaned Bebes. i also cut and died michaelas hair and trimmed conners hair. i think i will be a Hair Cutter when i grow old. along with the many other things i plan to accomplish when i grow old. i also trimmed kyndricks hair much to his chagrin. but anyway at bebes house i cleaned off her back porch. kelly compared the dust to volcanic ash because it was covering EVERYTHING. and i complained yes i did. but afterwords i realized that it really was enjoyable because when i look at the back porch i know that it is because of me you can go out there and not die anymore. and i realized i dont kind cleaning like that sort of stuff. so anyway.

i watched Boy In the Striped Pajamas. and MYGOODNESS. was it SAD. yes it was. It was about WWII and i cant say anything else

now for my dream/s.

i dont really remember much. i just remember like bits...
but i was on this rooftop and there was an old man and he made me spicy like chinese noodles and they had some sort of like dumpling in it oh my was it good! and he was a very nice man. i kept thinking i had had the dream before and he had made me chinese noodles before but now that i am awake i cant really remember.

then i had a dream about summer gym. but there was NO coach Clarke or any other real coach for that matter. i don't remember who the teacher was but it was the beast summer gym session EVER. i think it was more a Yoga gym class then a run the bleachers do 50 pushups and a million crunches and if you dont ill bury you under the turf.

then i was in Mrs. Ringle's history class. and abby and jamie where there. and a lot of other kids. but for some reason i had my new laptop with me... and Abby was Being BAD and pored her like iced tea all over my key board. boy was i happy with her! haha... not. we got in a fight. but then i went to my locker and it was crazy! and i think we had keys to our lockers and inside our lockers were like these little boxes and i dont even no why they were there. but i think i had a REal backpack! eek! and then i lost my schedule and didn't no what class to go to. and then i went to luch and they were redoing the lunch room! and it was completely white and modern looking it was very nice and the lunch menu! yummie! there were french fries and FRESH fruit and it looked edible. it was nice. very nice.

Nice

Last night my dream was about France. I went with Julie but there were a lot of other girls from school there too! and Boo Boo was there... so anyway. the House had an upstairs and that is where Julies sisters room was, but i didn't go upstairs. but the house was long and had like old wood flooring like the wood at the artist in you or the old house in lapel something to that effect. there were lots of bedrooms and two bathrooms downstairs one was extremely nice and the other one wasn't as nice (maybe one was girls and one was boys) but i think when we al came in the front door Julies dad had some friends over and they were playing poker...
but anyway i got a picture message Chloe sent and it was of barbie dolls like some cool old ones and next thing i know the pictures turn into like real barbies it was crazy! imagine if pics could turn into real things... so then it switches and i am walking down this like dirt hill and i have like my bag with my Barbies in it... and these three boys riding bikes go by me and i look in my bag and i have a bike in my bag! but it isn't like put together. so i call out to the boys to help me and they are like what? but then they see i have bike to put together and they get excited.

it was't as vivid as my other dream but i think i decided i should write my dreams down from now on. because let me tell you. i have had some crazy dreams. like one about the vampires? did i tell you that one? about the mansion with the like tunnel doors we use at the high school to enter the darkroom? well we slept in those during the day because they blocked out the light. but now that i am trying to remember i don't remember if i was a vampire or if i was being turned... but there was a boy vampire who was the leader and he had dark hair and ten skin and i don't think he wore a shirt. then there was the girl vampire who had tattoos and her name was like Daisy or something... i don't really remember it, it happened a while ago.

Dream a Dream

this is my first post as an 18 year old and my first post on my new computer. i love my new computer, even if it does make me feel not very intelligent. But really it is new and shiny and i get kind of confused and intimidated by its newness and shininess. I think the real problem is i am afraid i am going to accidentally hurt it. because that would be very very unfortunate. but i do have Block Tie accidental insurance. But still i don't wanna hurt it! it just seems so delicate... but anyway. It came with a free 8GB ipod touch which is why i decided to get a new $999.99 computer at all. and while 8GB isn't very much it is all i need because i am not very big on apps... i just don't get em. so i can just put music on it and not feel bad for paying $300 and not using it for all it is usable for. one little catch on all of this is... i don't have WiFi... and i am using the very generous neighbors... i feel bad because i heard it is really bad to do that and that it slows the internet connection down... but what can i do?! really???

last night i was too hyped up about my computer and had some trouble sleeping haha. but i had a CRAZY dream i will try to explain.
Kelly and i were like taking some crazy class at the high school. but the high school was like in the mall? can you say odd. and the class was like on Monday so i missed all my regular Monday classes. But there was like a guest speaker and i believe he was a police man or something and he was like talking to us about something crazy. and anyway Kelly and i were afraid someone was going to come murder us because of something crazy and i don't really remember. But then the class was over and i guess Kelly left and i was just in like the commons area with like all the kids from school and whatnot. but they were giving out like T-Shirts from like all the sports and whatnot... they were UGLY. so then i found Jamie and Julie and Jennifer and Jen and i Went downstairs to get stuff out of our lockers and it like packed with like Victorias Secret stuff and we got in trouble for going down there because the lady thought we were stealing Lingerie which was very very silly of her. we were just going to our lockers.
so then we go outside and it is snowing and it turns out we are like in Poland or something and it is EXTREMELY dark outside. so jamie goes to find her car and i cant see anything in the world and so i freak out because these two cars pull out of parking spots at the exact same time and almost wrecked but it turned out it wasn't jamie so that made us all VERY happy. so she was like supposed to drive us home but then i blink.
we walking home in the snow and it is sunny out. and the time period feels like it is like WWII and jamie and i are wearing cute dresses with long brown jackets with big buttons and Mary Jane's and have gold heart shaped lockets on and out hair is long with a big bow pinned in it.
it is intense but very cool. we decide we cant go down this one street because there is like someone standing there (who looks like a teacher from school) and we would get in trouble or something. so we find our way to what turns out to be Jamie's Grandmothers house. And so then i guess i blink again and i am in the attic sitting in this box/bathtub/boat and there are two boys reading what i think might have been the Bible? and then all of a sudden a flood comes and i hear Jamie scream and everyone dies... but i am l floating in the water with my hair and heart shaped locket floating but i know i don't die because the boat thing i was sitting in saves me. and then i woke up...

18 years

June 4th i will be 18 years old! yippie!!

1. Babyblue Linen Toms
2. IPad
3. ITouch
4. IMac notebook thingie.
5. Car
6. France Moneys.
7. Braces Taken Off
8. Camera cuz mine seems to be having issues
9. Christian Louboutins
10. New GPA
11. i cant rememeber

This is me posting....

Something after many a many day. but i don't really have much to say. or anything at all. Except J and M need to get their acts together. I cant wait to see Iron Man. I need to save my Moneys. i Need to write my English research that is worth like... 500 points?? but i really do not want to write it because it is dumb and it is a research paper about Barbie. and i am trying to express that Barbie is Good, But i have to use stupid research and it has to be SIX pages. and i hate it. i should have just done it on Banning Books because i would have had more to say. Book Banning is bad because books teach you lessons in life and if i didn't read books about other people screwing up their lives i might not have known known better and screwed up my life. you see! that is great! haha... Instead all i have to say is Barbie is good. and then i have to state why? ummmmm because i said so? isn't that reason enough. i think so.

I really need a car to. Really really bad i need a car. really really bad. wanna give me one? i need one.

hummm

i feel bad i havent been posting lately.
but i just have nothing to really say!
and that is okay right? i think so.
so dont worry i will back with
something to say.
and you will love it ;)

S.

Shwans

Mozzarella Cheese Sticks are wonderful beautiful things. I love them. They are delicious. Especially when you cook them long enough the cheese oozes out of them. yeah there wonderful. I wonder if Matteo's has Mozzarella cheese sticks. i feel like they should for some reason. but i am pretty sure they dont. maybe i should ask them to get some haha. i bet people would order them... they are yummie.

where is the oxygen and transmisson sensor

My favorite part in New Moon is when KStew slaps Paul and then he transforms into a wolf because it pisses him off. To bad Paul didnt snap her head off that would have been happymaking. Stupid Jake had to be the big hero and save her.

Neighbors

In my not so very small Neighborhood i have a few favorite family's i love to keep secretly updated with.

Like the family i met before they had kids. they had a motorcycle back then and garage sales where i once bought a beautiful porcelain doll with all the change i managed to dig up. The Mom has red hair and she is a lil round in the middle but not overly so. the dad Kellys tells me has a british accent which is cool and he is cute with dark hair and glasses and works in the garage sometimes. they have three little boys one is named connor i think it is spelled with an O though instead of a E. I think the oldest boy is maybe a lil older then my conner but i am not positive. they have a red station wagon and a white car that is shaped like a box and i cant remember the name of. But they have Political Bumperstickers! that support Obama and stuff i LOVE them.

Another one of my favorites is this family that lives down the street in a house on the corner with a very lovely backyard with a wrought iron fence with a gate that i glance at when i can. I think they have two little boys i am not positive though because when i see them i usually watch the Parents because they are Happy and beautiful and fun to watch because you can tell they love each other. they are youngish but not to young and playful and ride their bikes a lot. they sort of remind of the Noah and Allie when they were young and happy and it was summer in the south.

The third live in the street behind my house. they have a beautiful dog and i think they have four wheelers and weird stuff like that. today i saw the dad shooting a bow and arrow in the backyard... there is a little Boy and Girl i believe they are both Blonde and i think they are also just a lil older then conner. the dad has like salt and pepper hair and is in shape and is not hard on the eyes. i have never seen a mother so i wonder if there is a mother i think not but i really have no clue.

i think this is all of my favorite family's i keep tabs on without really having any connection to at all.
I do love to experience the one family i know because there are SO MANY of them and they are all home schooled and cute! but because they have sons my age that i know i feel like they don't really count and i cant really put them on this list. but that is okay because i do love watching them hehe. Like the Dad manages chickfila and is olderish but very cute and nice. the Mom has a twin sister i hear and always wears a hat and braids in her hair. they have six kids. the oldest, J, was my first boyfriend! and cant spell valentines. then the one after him, D, is adorable and quiet and funny and plays Rugby. Then there is B and C who are silly little boys who really arent that little anymore but once B was roller blading off this ramp and fell and broke his wrist and i was here and saw it happen... C well we used to call him a chipmunk because well... he looked like a little fluffy chipmunk and well still does.. and then the babies G and i can NEVER remember the otherones name... but they are cute little girls who are tan and cute and once G accidentally like drank some sort of chemical you ARE NOT supposed to drink and had to go to the hospital...

and anyway. this is my stalker information from the neighborhood. i hope i don't come across as creepy because it is not a creepy obsession i have these people i just admire each family for different reasons and maybe someday i will have a family and will be able to pull my favorite characteristics from them and apply it to my own life. you never no, it could happen.

April 15.

i was sitting in my class for slackers, Earth and Space Science class, and this kid who sits near me and is a sophomore and lacks... brains ( he called me racist and wrote a letter to the teacher telling her i was being racist and thankfully the teacher understood the predicament and just pretended to keep me after class to make him happy and i didnt get in trouble for him telling her that when i was being racist when i WAS IN NO WAY being racist. i went to a Montessori school when i was little hello!? ) anyway i dont remember what was happening but he was like your fat ( to me ) and the kid between me and the kid who said it, was like... auctually i cant remember what he said... something along the lines of yeah your fat but just a little. ya no? and then the original kid was like OKay big boned. i was like WTF i didnt frekin ask you if you thought i was Fat or not. auctully i just gave them a look and then didnt talk to either one of them the rest of class and i dont plan on talking to the original one as long as i can get away with it. because really he is stupid. it was just one of those stupid high school moments i had to share... because i dont think i am necessarily fat i mean i am like a 5/6 or 27 that is an average size... i wouldnt say i was... healthy or skinny or fit... but i would say i am not OVERLY FAT or Obese... but maybe i am and i dont know it do you ever wonder if the way you see your self isnt how everyone else sees you? and maybe i am Obese and i just cant see it, hummmmmm.... but we did get to go outside where i talked to my friend Alec who would NEVER call me fat ;D

Snooping.

I was just roaming facebook you know how that goes... you go to one persons page then see someone and click on them then you click on someone else... so on and so forth... anyway.

'some things fall apart so you can put even better things together'

Sasha said this to Kristen and i thought it was Quotable.
So thank you Sasha. I always knew you were... fascinating.

To tell the truth

i wish i was a deeper person in general.
i wouldn't say that i am shallow, i just wish i was deeper. like... smarter like i could express my opinion and blow you out of the water with my excessive knowledge. i wouldn't want to be cocky and knowitally, just deep. like a Philosopher so i could write great novels like Makaveli and Shakespeare or the lady who stuck her head in the oven. That is funny because Makaveli was like... political and Shakespeare wrote the most famous plays in the whole entire world and the Sylva Plath... well all i know is that she stuck her head in the over and i have to read her book senior year. But i figure i would want to be a well rounded writer right? haha but instead if i wrote a book... it would be fictitious not even like J.M. Berry fiction defiantly more like Twilight fiction. You see?

and i am failing Math and not even because i am busy or because i am rebelling against the masses or anything cool at all it is just because i am lazy and it is hard and i don't feel like dealing with things that are hard. I just want to take a damn (ha) pottery glass! you see what i mean? and for my AP Photo stuff... my pictures are of Barbies!? comeON! How UNdeep can you get? and its not like Barbie fighting Feminism it is like... Barbie Getting dressed. maybe i will figure out how to tie it to Feminism so that i can be a little bit more Deep... cuz i am NOT going to blow ANYone, let alone some collage i may choose to show my portfolio to, away with my total lack of undeepness.

sometimes i do silly dumb things because of my lack of rememberence and so then people see me as silly and dumb. when really... i am not silly and dumb... i just don't care enough to remember anything.

I want to wear black turtlenecks and French berets and sip black coffee while reading war and peace. I want to sit and Noble Tea and Coffee (because i wont conform to Starbucks because of some unethical reason i feel strongly against) and have deep discussions about... God and Politics and... stuff i would feel passionate about.

I want to feel passionate! about all this deep shit i don't care about right now. I want to like red wine and watch Clockwork Orange and foreign films. I want to care about REALLY learning as many foreign languages as i possibly could that way i really could travel anywhere i wanted and not have to rely on a interpretor.

I want to ENJOY listening to Beethoven and Chopin and annoying music without words and have it MOVE me because it is soo damn beautiful.

I want to go to Africa and make a movie to show the injustice taking place right next door. I want to start a movement because i can. I want to show people that i can make a difference. i want to live in God's image and love him and give him everything i have and believe in him wholly and unselfishly. I want to help fight poverty and give them what i can and only keep what i absolutely truly must keep to survive.

I want to not care about what other people think completely with my whole self and live my life for me and not others because i am afraid what they will think. (not that i do this often... but i have done it and i am ashamed because i should not do things because you want me to when i don't want to)

i want to teach the people around me a life lesson they will NEVER forget.

I want to astound my teachers because i am so wonderful and full of insight. I want to play the Piano because all intelligent people play the piano because the piano makes you smarter.

i want to eat Organic and go for walks because i love the beautifulness of the outdoors and every time i go outside i want to thank the lord for giving me all the life and beauty that is outside my door.
i want to be able to thank God for everything he has given me and not mourn for everything he has not given me that i wanted or for everything i feel he has taken from me.

My brain stopped spewing thoughts for the moment and this seems like a decent place to stop... Being able to trust in God and thank him? That seems darn important so it is a perfect ending point.

La Te Da Te Daaaa!

First day back to school after SB. It was...

English was...

Photo was not to shabby. Because well... it is art. and so i didn't really do anything all block but talk to John and mess with Photoshop...

History was a little boring... we played a tilted version of Jerpody. Then took some boring notes about... what i dont remember.

AL nothing unusual... but Prom is like two weeks away... UGHHH! We have so much to do! i went to the Art room to finish my Photoshop work so i can get prints made...

Then... SATPrep. the most boring thing i have ever experienced in my life. and guess what! i almost got kicked out of the class room! it was great!

and Now Jamie and i have to drive this... annoying boy to school! eek! forreal! he like roped us into it... meanie head...

to be announced...

i was in France last time he came
and i will be in France once again...
Maybe i will get lucky and get to see
him in one of the meny other states
he will be visiting before i leave?
or i wont get lucky and will have
to wait another two years...
we will see.

August 15 2010

Deer Creek





or for you newbies...
Stupid Verizon.

Things i have bought.

1. New bikini from Victoria's secret
2. Sunglasses from walmart
3. skirt from walmart
4. pretend spankx that are stupid 'D
5. 3 summer/spring dresses
6. Pretend Birkenstock's that make my feel look extrawide!
7. cheap underwear from walmart!
8. 5 mens small v-neck t's
9. a cute black dress for work

10. almost bought ugly shorts from walmart
11. almost bought old mens circulation socks
12. almost bought new crazy shoes numerous times

i tried to measure my suitcase for Savvy and i couldn't find like a tape measure so i used a ruler! haha and i think it might be just the right size. hopefully. i will just pack light. haha. well i have to because what if i buy stuff!! then it will be like uhhhhhhh i am an idiot. ummmm let me think. anything else???? nope. except i love bagels with creamcheese and tomatos and salt!! yummie yummie. i think i have a headache. i better drink some water ;DDD

decisions decisons.

I think I want to go shopping. I need a few things.
1. New bikini
2. Shoes to go with Dress.
3. Tori made me think about it
and i realized i need new wedges.
4. Spanks because i wanna be cool.
5. Spring/Summer dresses
6. Life.
7. i cant seem to remember.